What I do know is that I miss you, but that I’m surviving. What I do know is that know when the memories come and pull be back to when you were by my side, I no longer have to bite my tongue to hold back tears. What I do know is that it’s all of these little things in my life–a red light, a place we used to sit, a thought I wish I could share– all of these little things are how I hold onto you. I don’t know if holding onto the memory of you is a good thing, but I do know that I’m going to do it. What I do know is that I love you more than any other man I’ve ever met, and that I wish you the best.